Faith

The last 2 months have been such a roller coaster. It amazes me how God works in our lives.  When I first heard the diagnosis of hydrocephalus and what all that could mean, I kept asking "why me?" and "what did I do to deserve this?"  I felt completely lost and like no one could understand exactly what I was feeling.  I know it is hard for others to feel the level of fear and anxiety that I myself am feeling.  For the first 4 or 5 weeks after diagnosis it was very hard for me to talk about him and even to look at the dozens of ultrasound pictures we had of him.  I even had a hard time looking at my belly in the mirror! (Seems so silly now!)  When someone would call or come up to me and say that they had been praying for me or even just hug me, I would cry.  I wasn't able to respond back with anything but "thank you."  I almost wished that people would just stop talking about it so I would not have to think about the scary, uncertain side of things.  I have some of the best friends and family that anyone could ask for.  From calling me, emailing, texting, sending cards, and traveling to drs. appointments with me, I have seen how much everyone cares.  Thanks!

From the early days of diagnosis until now, SO MUCH HAS CHANGED INSIDE ME!  I can talk about Tripp and when people come up to me, call, or tell me they are praying for me it makes me smile.  The prayers are working and I am at peace with the plan that God has for me and my family.  It is such a relief to me that I have been able to turn all this over to God and let Him guide me through this journey each day. Please just keep the prayers coming!  God is listening!